Yeshua says: Many times you have desired to hear these words,
I speak to you, and you have no one else from whom to hear them.

There will be days you will look for me and you will not find me.

(Luke 10:23,24)

The question here is what do I “desire”.

When I desire to hear the words of Yeshua, my heart opens and the wisdom of his eternal kingdom is immediately present. I understand that there is nowhere else to look for this deep truth for which I long.

In John’s Gospel, Jesus is reported to have warned the religious leaders of his day who were seeking to destroy him,

You search the scriptures because you think that in them you have eternal life; and it is they that testify on my behalf. Yet you refuse to come to me to have life. (John 6:39-40)

The question I must allow to search my heart is what motivates my seeking.

There are times when I am not actually seeking to surrender my life to the power of love. Rather I seek to use the power of love to satisfy my own sense of longing. I hope to use the power of love to find peace, health, or well-being. I do not actually want to serve love, but to have love serve me.

Yeshua cautions his students that, when they try to use his words for their own ends, even though they may “look” for him, they “will not find” him.

Love does not bend to my will. Love does not exist to serve my needs, wants, or desires.

When Jesus in the wilderness was tempted to put his own needs first, he responded to the tempter quoting Deuteronomy 6:13 saying,

Worship the Lord your God,
and serve only him.
(Matthew 4:10)

Love seeks only to serve love. Any other motivation diminishes the power of love at work in my life and leaves me unable to find that love which is the true purpose and meaning of my life.

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Today I will seek to see when I have turned my longing for love into a means to achieve my desired end and will seek instead to allow love itself to be the dominant force in my life without condition.