Yeshua says: If two make peace in this one house,
they will tell the mountain:
‘Move away,’ and it will move.

(Matthew 17:19-21; Matthew 21:21; Romans 12:18)

This is my goal, to “make peace in this one house” between the “two” of my life. I long to learn to live beyond duality.

I know what it is to be “two”. I know the devastating impact of being fragmented and scattered. So often I am going in at least two different directions at the same time.

I want to be pure and holy and good and true. But the small petty self to which I so often give power, rises up demanding to be heard and seeking to run my life. When I give power to this small self, the ahamkara (Saying 35), I become powerless to live the life for which I know in my deepest being I was created.

When I allow myself to be taken by this small self, I am no longer “one house.” I am a scattered rooming house filled with a multitude of voices. I become like the man in “the country of the Gerasenes” who “lived among the tombs,” and was possessed by a “Legion” of demons. (Mark 5:1-13) I feel the pain of fragmentation.

The journey of the spiritual life is to return to that place of integration, where the scattered dimensions of my inner state come back into a unified whole. Paul wrote to the Corinthians that they had been entrusted with “the ministry of reconciliation” (2 Corinthians 5:18). The English word “reconcile” comes from the Latin re- ‘back’ (also expressing intensive force) + conciliare ‘bring together.’ To reconcile is to bring back together that which has been separated. I can only begin to be a force for reconciliation when the fragmented parts of my own being have begun to return to some measure of harmony.

The power of love seeks to restore me to the place where, after his encounter with Jesus, the man who had been tormented by the Legion of demons found himself

sitting there, clothed and in his right mind. (Mark 5:15)

This is the place from which “the mountain: of division will begin to ‘Move away.’ When I come back to my true self, I connect with the deep power of love that is my true nature. From this place true healing and reconciling action becomes possible.

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Today I will seek to see those sources within myself that cause me to become a house divided and I will seek to surrender to the unifying power of love that I may again become the unified integrated being able to live in my “right mind.”

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