1:35The next day John again was standing with two of his disciples, 36 and as he watched Jesus walk by, he exclaimed, “Look, here is the Lamb of God!” 37 The two disciples heard him say this, and they followed Jesus. 38a When Jesus turned and saw them following, he said to them, “What are you looking for?” 

It is such a great question. It is a question I need to ask myself often, “What are you looking for?”

“What are you looking for?”

When I seek power and influence, prestige and glory, what am I looking for? When I seek to make a good impression alluding to how hard I work, or how much I have accomplished, what am I looking for? When I try to distract myself with mindless entertainment, what am I looking for? When I seek to accumulate great mounds of material security in the world, what am I looking for? When I try to endear myself to others by being inauthentic and even dishonest, what am I looking for? When I retaliate against the person by whom I feel wronged, or slighted, or abused, what am I looking for? When I rail against the way the world works, or more accurately doesn’t work, what am I looking for?

There is obviously no one answer to all of these questions. The point is not even primarily to answer the question. The point is to use the question to deepen my awareness of who I am and what forces I am allowing to drive my life.

It is possible to try to answer these questions in a superficial way. I am looking for affirmation, security, a sense of identity and self-esteem, the illusion of power. And all these things may in part be true. But thereality is much deeper.

I am in fact looking for the very thing to which John the Baptist pointed his two disciples. Whether I know it or not, I am looking for “the Lamb of God.” I am looking for that innocence, purity, truth and vulnerability that Jesus embodied. This is the true and deepest longing of my heart.

Pay attention through your day to what you are looking for.