27‘Now my soul is troubled. And what should I say—“Father, save me from this hour”? No, it is for this reason that I have come to this hour. 28Father, glorify your name.’ Then a voice came from heaven, ‘I have glorified it, and I will glorify it again.’

It appears that even Jesus was tempted on occasion by small “l” “life”? When he asks, “what should I say – ‘Father, save me from this hour?’” he is talking about small ‘l’ ‘life’. The attempt to save myself is always an attempt to save small ‘l’ ‘life’. Capital “L” “Life” does not need to be saved. Capital “L” “Life” is already whole, already healed, already “saved”.

When I live in tune with capital “L” “Life”, I embody beauty and truth. God is “glorified”.

When “my soul is troubled” it is more difficult to hold on to capital “L” “Life”. I begin to panic. It feels as if my job is to protect myself from harm, to keep myself safe and to preserve my small fragile identity. My “life” feels threatened.

“Life” is never threatened. “Life” is strong and enduring. It is “eternal”. It cannot be destroyed or undermined. It is a steady “Life” force that no power on earth can ever defeat. Evidence of this force of “Life” is present everywhere for those who are able to see.

This “Life” can be trusted.

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When I am “troubled” do I scramble to preserve “life” or do stop clinging to “life” and open to “Life”? How is my “life” different when I live with an awareness of “Life” and loosen my grip on “life”?

James Tissot Brooklyn Museum What Our Lord Saw from the Cross