An Interview with Cynthia Bourgeault, March 24, 2011
The following interview, conducted by Christopher Page, took place as part of an on-going discussion in the church about the role sacraments may play in the spiritual journey.
CP: Cynthia Bourgeault is a recognized spiritual teacher in the Christian contemplative tradition. She is a writer and an Episcopal priest. Tonight she has agreed to talk to me about her spiritual journey.
Cynthia, lots of people in their spiritual lives today, don’t follow the traditional pattern of what we might assume in the Christian church is the normative pattern. You are kind of a pioneer in that department. Your spiritual journey has not exactly followed the traditional model of what might have been laid out for you. And yet you have ended up for many years in the Anglican Church following a traditional pattern of the Christian life.
Can you talk to me a little about the beginnings of your conscious spiritual journey and how that unfolded and led you into the Episcopal Church in the United States and to such an intense engagement in the life of the church.
CB: I was raised in the Christian tradition, but in corners that were the opposite end of the extremity that is Anglicanism. My parents were Christian Scientists and that was largely by the driving force of my mother.
Christian Science is one of those early religions of faith based practice. The idea was that, if one could really understand what Jesus was seeing, then one could perform the healings he did. Basically people know Christian Science practitioners as faith healers and that was the tradition I grew up in.
You can’t say it’s a non-Eucharistic tradition because they do celebrate Communion once a month. But Communion was not open to children in the Sunday school and you were In Christian Science Sunday school until you were eighteen. So there was absolutely no clue for me that Communion existed.
I was sent for my first 6 years of education to a Quaker school in Pennsylvania which was founded by a very beautiful classic Quaker Non-Program Meeting. Kids were exposed to a half hour of silence once a week. How they brought it off I don’t know. We all trooped in and sat on the long benches two kids from different classes on facing benches. It was a direct immersion in silence.
So from the Quaker tradition I experienced the immediate basis of the grounding in mystical religion. It was a huge relief because no one was kind of talking at me with words.
I had my first mystical experience, I don’t know I wouldn’t have named it that way but it was in one of the little assemblies that we did in our Quaker school and it was during the singing of the verses, I don’t know whoever set the text for Finlandia, and it says “but other lands have sunlight too and clover….and skies are everywhere”
That text just opened out to me when I was ten, a sense of the oneness of the planet. So those were my two traditional streams. You could say they were both presence traditions, the Quaker more powerfully. The Quakers don’t observe the sacraments whatsoever, because they say they that the present moment is sacramental. As one of the Quaker mystics Thomas Kelly would say ”the immediate intimacy with Christ, not the receding vision of the divine glories has to be the basis of our prayer life”. So in the classic Quaker orientation there’s no baptism, there’s no confirmation or Eucharist; there’s no Christmas. There’s nothing that creates contrast in the church because we are to learn to live in the immediacy of the present.
CP: What about Christian Science tradition, was there baptism?
CB: Christian Science is not liturgical. There was communion once a month. But the real guts of Christian Science is carried by the applied application of Jesus’ healing.
CP: Would you be baptized as a Christian Scientist?
CB: Oh no, they don’t do that – no baptism in Quaker tradition, no baptism in Christian Science.
CP: So did you ever take Eucharist or Communion as a Christian Scientist?
CB: Oh no, I would have if I had lasted as a member until I was eighteen. Then I would have been there on Communion Sunday.
CP: What was the deciding factor that would have allowed you to take Communion in the Christian Science church?
CB: Being eighteen. You get to join the mother church when you turn thirteen, which I did with great pomp and circumstance and promptly forgot about it. But you graduate from Sunday school at the age of eighteen.
CP: So it is purely chronological? You get to be the right age and then…
CB: Yeah, yeah.
If you’ve been through Sunday school you join the membership of the church and that membership establishes the rituals you get to go to. And the Eucharist was called Holy Communion and was that slightly embarrassing thing you do one Sunday a month.
CP: So at all these points along the way would you have self-identified as a Christian?
CB: Well it’s not really a valid choice, because in West Chester, Pennsylvania in the fifties, there really was no other option. It was more to know what flavor of Christian you were going to be. And of course there was the understanding that the safest and truest Christians were basically Presbyterians. The Methodists got a little enthusiastic but that was ok. But the Baptists were definitely not only weird but lower down the economic echelon. The Catholics were definitely suspect because they were papists and the Anglican or the Episcopal Church were a little suspect because they had a foot in the door of the papacy. But the Episcopal Church was ok because the people who were heads of the country club went there. And the first six presidents of the United States were Episcopalians.
CP: So you’re a non-baptized non-Communion-receiving Christian Scientist who becomes a Quaker and begins to have some sort of spiritual awakening through Quakerism. And that gets us up to your high school years?
CB: Well I didn’t become a Quaker, except for a couple of years in my adult life. It was just there in my childhood, as an anchor. There was no question of becoming a Quaker; no one was going to admit a ten year old child to the Quakers over the vast opposition of her parents. To my parents, I would remain a Christian Scientist.
It is interesting how my first experience with the Episcopal Church came about. My mother belonged to a recorder group and was asked to play in a Benjamin Britton musical opera, taking place in the Episcopal Church. I remember going one Saturday for a dress rehearsal. I remember going into this church and immediately having an intense sense of relief and mystery. There were stone walls on the inside and the outside and the presence of something I recognized as a whole different order of holiness.
CP: So it was the building, it wasn’t a service; it was the architecture?
CB: Yeah, it was the ambiance of the architecture.
It’s one of the reasons I am desperately opposed to churches being locked except when there’s a service. I think that ninety-eight percent of the work of conversion takes place outside of services. It’s in that private relationship between the person and the divine. That space is mediated directly between the person and God.
CP: So now you’ve had Christian Science, Quaker and some exposure to the Episcopal Church. But you are still a non-baptized, non-Communicating teenager.
CB: And I know nothing really about Communion or baptism. Whatever impressions I might have had were coloured by the pejorative comments of my mother who used to say, “So that’s why they have to have stained glass windows because what they do in there can’t stand up to the clear light of day!”
There were these vague rumblings about sacrifice and drinking blood. I remember being terrified when my eighth grade history teacher got married. He was a Catholic. My best friend and I were invited to the wedding at St. Agnes Catholic church in West Chester. I remember to this day being torn between wanting to be there and see my teacher getting married and yet being absolutely terrified to cross the threshold of the church because in the Christianity of the fifties papacy was like a foretaste of hell.
CP: So where are we now?
CB: West Chester, Pennsylvania about an hour west of Philadelphia. I had no concept of sacramental life. I had some exposure to the Bible. Basic Christian ethics were a part of Christian Science. And had that intense immersion in silence, waiting on the presence of God and some felt sense of God and of that living presence, that had all been part of my Quaker experience.
CP: So are you still a practicing Christian Scientist at this point?
CB: No, I never embraced the religion. I knew when I was three that there was something hopelessly wrong with it. All along I knew it was just a waiting game with Christian Science. But I had to attend. My parents were very clear that I was in their charge and remember this was in 1968.
CP: So then you went off for higher education?
CB: I was exposed a little to Episcopal liturgy, when I was sent to a private high school in a neighbouring town which was deeply intertwined with the Episcopal Church. We had chapel twice a week; we had major events, baccalaureate events at the local very upscale Episcopal Church. So once again I renewed my love affair with the stone buildings, architecture, and pointy shapes. And I learned a lot of the Episcopal hymns and prayers and responses that were part of the obligatory chapel.
CP: But nobody at that point indicated that you ought to be baptized, or take communion?
CB: No, no. We were required to take religion for two years in high school. It was actually taught by a wonderful fellow who was in fact a Quaker. He basically just opened up the whole field of religious inquiry and reading the Bible as literature. I remember to this day his taking us through the story of Saul in the Old Testament, the first tragedy of western literature. It was such a delicious relief from the cramming theology down your throat kind of approach that I’d had on the cataphatic side of my religious experience.
CP: So then you get out of high school and there’s no real religious leadings to go anywhere?
CB: Yes my mother wanted me to go to Christian Science meetings when I was at college but by then she was 350 miles away, so she had lost her influence.
So by the time I got out of high school I’d become desperately in love with music and I was a choral musician and I joined an early music group at college. I fell in love with just the intoxicating beauty of these early medieval and renaissance pieces that are 95% religious. And I gravitated to the motets and masses more than the madrigals, so something was working through that.
But the actual first day when I had an encounter with Eucharist, was by accident. I was on a weekend trip with my college roommate and another college girlfriend. I was in Ohio State at this time. We were going to deliver a girlfriend up to London Ontario for the weekend to visit her boyfriend. When we got there I saw in the paper on Saturday night that the boy choir of St Paul’s Church of London England was going to perform at St Paul’s Anglican Church in London, Ontario. They were performing selections from the Bird Mass for voices. I rousted my roommate out of bed and she came along.
I was so enraptured with the performance of the boy choir that I didn’t even notice the long talk breaks between the choral sections. It wasn’t until a very stern, forbidding guy stood at the end of my pew and ushered us forward that I said, “My God we are in a Communion line.” And all of a sudden it twigged what people were saying. This was Holy Communion, the weird thing they do in the Episcopal Church. All the girls in my class would get nervous because they had to go through some confirmation class and it was a big deal, party dresses, and then they didn’t have to go to church anymore.
I was 20 and I was terrified. My roommate had fortunately been raised a Catholic. She said just follow me and do what I do. So we knelt at the altar rail and she put up her hands and whispered to me “don’t chew it”. So it was placed in my hands then along came the cup and she said “don’t touch it… with your hands I mean.”
So I’m kneeling there wobbling, thinking as I still do today, how can you steady the cup without putting your hands on it? I took my little plastic wafer and my little sip of Communion wine. Then I started back to my pew and said “Well, that’s that!” – with a sense that I had survived.
But somewhere on the way back to the pew there was a quiet sense that I had met my match, that something intensely familiar, intensely intimate had happened. I sensed something I had been missing all my life, like a missing dimension without even realizing that’s what it was. So that was in 1967.
CP: And there was no indication from anyone that you shouldn’t have gone forward?
CB: Well, I was a stranger. I was in town going to a concert, and the priest didn’t know who I was. If the priest had said this is for baptized Christians only, I wouldn’t have really known what he meant anyway. And anyway I was too scared of that sidesperson to not go up for Communion. If I thought I had a choice I never would have done it. But it was like you shall go up or you will be in trouble.
CP: So going back – there was an experience, this sense of something.
CB: Well the word they use is good, “Communion.” You know the most amazing thing for me from that experience is not that I knew, but that I knew I knew. What in me recognized that this was a qualitatively different dimension and that it somehow inhabited real space/ time? There was a familiarity and an intimacy that I simply could not deny. So the axe was to the root as it were.
CP: So where to go from there, why not just drop it?
CB: Well it was a seed. There were no more immediate ramifications. It was in a strange church, in a strange town. There was no follow-up; there didn’t need to be any follow-up. I didn’t hear God calling me to be an Episcopalian but a seed was planted. My second Communion happened 3 years later.
In the interim I got married and was working at Quakerism with my husband and singing a lot of sacred music.
CP: At that point you joined the Quaker Meeting?
CB: Well we joined the Meeting together and were married in the Quaker Meeting.
CP: But that wouldn’t have introduced you to sacraments.
CB: No, then a friend of mine said she had heard something about an Easter midnight service and she invited me to come along. So we went to vigil at this little church. It was 1970. The service went the whole 9 yards, in the dark, the choir, the new fire, it was so exotic . By then I was a 23 year old starved for mystical experience. It was just so exotic and we had Communion; that was part of it. I don’t have a clear memory of it. Then my third Communion was a year after that.
CP: So now you are an active Quaker. Do you consider yourself a Christian, an active Quaker at this point?
CB: Yeah, still working with the non-sacramental tradition but already hitting a wall. Already I could see at the age of 23 that the fire they were paying lip service to was not actually being tended and that eldership had become a matter of the length of time you had been in the meeting and the amount of money you paid and there was no living formation, which by this time I was thirsting for and there was no place you could go to be more deeply formed as a Quaker. There were residential schools like Pendle Hill and other communities, but my husband was not in a position to leave and go there – what was so distressing to me was that no one in the Meeting seemed to recognize the problem.
CP: So you clearly have a heart that is burning for God, but…
CB: Yes, for a more intimate encounter with the Divine.
CP: But it never occurred to you to be baptized, it never occurred to you that Eucharist should be a regular part of your spiritual discipline?
CB: These were not part of my life; there was just this hunger. Then my life began to entwine with this extraordinary Episcopal minister at the University of Penn. His name was John Scott. He really became my first mentor in Christianity. It is through his unique genius that I am where I am today. But my intermediary ground really and my immersion in sacramental life came through the arts.
I was a graduate student in medieval studies at that point working very intensely with the English cycle dramas. St Mary’s Episcopal church was the informal campus performance centre for these cycles. So we were working to perform the 14th century play of the creation from one of the cycles and I had worked out a translation of it and my husband was the director of the choir and we had musicians and we were working around a performance date and we were talking about this time in February.
We had a date nailed down and then I said, “Isn’t that near Ash Wednesday?” And he said “Yeah. Why don’t we do it on Ash Wednesday as the service.” So we put on the play of the creation and it was profound, exactly right for Ash Wednesday , this 14th century cycle play of the fall of man and woman. Then when we received the ashes afterwards and were told to “Remember that thou art dust,” it had already been spoken in the play. Then it came time for communion, and the priest made it clear that everyone was welcome.
At St Mary’s you received communion by standing in a vast circle. So to bow out of communion you had to wriggle your way out of the circle.
CP: So you would have to choose to exclude yourself.
CB: Yeah, you had to choose to exclude yourself and not take communion instead of including yourself. So I received communion for the third time. I remember our little daughter Gwen who was three spoke to me and said, “I never knew that the body of Jesus had nuts in it.” We were back in the 60’s or 70’s when it was home-baked date loaf bread. She received too at the age of three.
That was the tipping point. Then that spring we were performing in the little colonial church in Delaware. We performed the Bird Ave Verum Corpus which was this extraordinary Communion hymn. Then we all tramped down and received Communion and I received Communion on Maundy Thursday in the Episcopal Church and then on for the next forty-eight hours it was kind of this continuous mystical experience of being in the body of Christ.
I drove into St Mary’s in Philadelphia where John Scott was. There was this big Easter celebration, and I was part of that circle, squished into it, and I became part of the mystical body receiving Communion. That was 1971, four years out from my first accidental Communion and I fell into the habit. St. Mary’s offered a daily noon-time Eucharist that lasted only half an hour and it was bare bones, simple, no sermon, you came in and you got out.
John Scott was also a third order Franciscan. He brought friars down to preach at St Mary’s and I realized even then that there was a difference with them. Anyway, John knew perfectly well that I was unbaptized and didn’t push, just kept giving me the Eucharist.
CP: So you were going weekly?
CB: I was going daily.
CP: What was it you thought you were doing then?
CB: I was wishing. I felt like putting a paper bag over my head when I left church because it was not cool at graduate school to be religious and yet something was so drawing me. So I didn’t really know what I was doing. Everything else was opening up too, I was listening to the Bernstein Mass. I was reading Jung’s work on the Eucharist.
CP: And you are still sitting in Meeting?
CB: Yeah, but it’s getting harder and harder because the Eucharistic reality has seized hold of me.
The next stage In the process was the discernment – again with John Scott. I was working part time at the Episcopal seminary because when I graduated from graduate school there were no jobs out there for a medievalist in a university. But I worked out a deal, once again with my feet walking me to the seminary which was a couple of blocks from the university. In exchange for teaching a couple of blocks of liturgical arts, I could audit one course a semester at the seminary. So I was in seminary and then folks began to say, how about ordination?
CP: You’re not baptized yet?
CB: Right. I had an initial meeting with the bishop, Bob Dewitt who was one of the great visionaries in the Episcopal Church. He said, “Yeah, you are exactly the kind of person we are looking for to ordain. By the way, the starting point of it will be to begin with you being baptized.”
But at that point I was ready to do the difficult separation work with the Meeting. And I was actually baptized in the Philadelphia Divinity School chapel, the last official function of it before the seminary merged with the Episcopal theological school in Boston.
My own experience is that the five or six years of feeding from the Eucharistic body was what gradually created the strength in me to be able to be ready to say yes, I am willing to self identify as a Christian on this path. At any point I along the way I could have tipped in the opposite direction. If John Scott had said well you really can’t keep coming here unless you’re baptized. I would have fled. At that point the deck was so stacked. Here I was a member of a Quaker Meeting and doing something that was so unpopular and I didn’t know what I was doing. My feet just kept walking me there. So if anyone had questioned me, if I’d have met with any rejection, I would have fled.
In my own empirical experience Eucharist precedes baptism. The change comes from the centre of your being where Christ transforms you from the inside out to enable you to embrace baptism as the acknowledgement of your choice that is a witness to the world given you by the grace of God.
CP: So you recognize that’s not the traditional pattern, certainly not an Anglican one.
CB: Oh yeah.
CP: So do you have any sense of what it is about your experience of Eucharist that facilitated your transition towards accepting the idea of baptism?
CB: Absolutely! It’s the living presence of Christ.
I’ve never been terribly impressed by theologies that try to pinpoint the moment bread turns into body and wine turns into blood. But there was never any question for me, from the very first moment, that these vessels were a living viaduct of the real presence of Christ. It was this incredibly intimate act of ingesting, so that it’s food on one level for the physical body, it’s also food for the spiritual body that is growing and ready to live its commitment to the invisible reality of the presence of Christ.
CP: So do you have any sense why it might be that the church has chosen for the most part to suggest that you can’t have that experience of Eucharist until you have had the expression of incorporation into the body through baptism?
CB: Well it’s because people are much more comfortable with their maps of reality than they are with reality.
I remember one of the old fishermen on Swan’s island who brought out one day a young guy who he thought could fix his plumbing system. The young guy spent the day in consternation and the old lobsterman said to him “It ain’t like it looks when you read it in the books”.
CP: So what’s the appeal of the books?
CB: Well, it creates order and continuity and a basis for things. You can play against that but I don’t want to. My own empirical experience would never allow me to validate the fact that you have to have baptism before you are admitted to Eucharist. I don’t want to be too superficial and say that this is a bad theology and tear it down – there’s power in the tradition reverently followed. John Scott was an ordained priest who had come through the tradition. The traditions are our midwife and they pass on a sacred lineage. So I want to be respectful here.
Where we get stuck is there is so little actual lived experience. It becomes hard to trust that the actual reality is true. So we idolatrously hold to our maps and terrain as the closest we come I think to the living power.
What the Quakers had done from the very start was they had accustomed my heart to recognize the living reality of the presence. They had taught me to trust that. From that first kind of mystical experience when I was ten I had learned from the quiet mentorship of the Quakers that any spiritual reality that is worth its salt has to be able to penetrate the present moment and live in one’s heart as a present reality. So that’s always been my orientation. And from the Christian Scientists I learned that maps can be bogus.
I really think that on the basis of the reconstruction of the tradition which seems to be very ancient, we turn a deaf ear to the possibility of real presence. I think the theology we so actively work out of, no matter what we think we proclaim, is that Christ is absent until the next coming and the church is the absentee landlord and that the best we can do is come to him by the meticulous observance of past directed rituals. I think this loss of faith in the presence of the resurrected Christ is the deep depression and sickness at the heart of our Christianity but we fight against everything that would allow that reality to have actual presence and life.
CP: So we put our roadmaps in the place of that presence, but does that mean abandoning all roadmaps?
CB: No. But it means learning to turn them into windows not doors, so that our roadmaps are gates or windows and they define normative practice. There’s probably goodness in that but when you can’t open the window and the Holy Spirit is knocking or you won’t open the door and when the wall is favoured over the opening in it – that for me is basically blasphemy against the Holy Spirit.
CP: So how do you know when a healthy, normative practice has become a straightjacket?
CB: When you can’t make exceptions.
CP: Yeah, and how far do the exceptions go?
CB: That’s what the heart of priestly vocation is all about, that we look inside the person. And I keep thinking in deep, deep gratitude of John Scott who was an early contemplative and who sat faithfully with the Franciscans. He knew how to look into the heart of things. He was also the only Episcopalian in the Diocese of Philadelphia who was arrested for anti-nuclear and anti-war behavior. I mean he was empowered from within to look at all things in the light of Christ.
CP: And so because of that he could see the work of Christ in you?
CB: He could see. He could see that… I don’t know what he saw. But intuitively I think what he sensed was that the Holy Spirit was moving me along and his function was to be in service of this conversion, not to impede it or try and direct its course.
CP: Which is probably a beautiful definition of priesthood and of the priestly vocation. It sounds almost like a midwife function.
CB: I think it is. It is really the Holy Spirit that is unfolding the soul from God rather than motivating the soul to God. The key is to be able to sense when to push and when to relax, when to set a challenge, when to set a hoop that a person has to jump through because you realize that they are ready.
I think when the Bishop of Pennsylvania said “Yeah, we can ordain you but you’ve got to be baptized first”, he too was a wise man. He knew when to push and how to set a hoop. But are these the rules because Christ appointed them? I don’t think so.
You know, Christ never said at the last supper, all baptized Christians please come forward and receive. I mean it’s not even the original understanding that the home of the Eucharist was in a church setting. That is a total romantic fantasy; it’s a retrojection in time. In the Eucharist what we have is a very present moment right on the edge of the crisis with a present person and a spiritual master taking elements close at hand and imbuing them with a meaning for the specific group of people gathered there so that they would be carried forward.
CP: So it’s interesting that even in earliest Christian tradition the Lord’s supper would have been celebrated in homes around a meal. It seems unlikely that children or visitors or company was excluded from that and the model of baptism in Acts that’s alluded to several times is that the person who has made a profession of faith was baptized and all of his household so they just kind of gathered everybody up and you were included. You were included in baptism and you were surely included in the celebration of the Lord’s Supper as well, regardless of whether or not you had been baptized.
CB: What we have now is all a churchified interpretation. It serves the church; it doesn’t serve the actual living thing. I’ve often said that if people understood the actual power that resided in the Eucharist, then, rather than locking up the Communion tables, they would place hosts in every hotel room, you know.
Because the procreative power of Christ to call his own is basically an intimate ritual, basically a calling of Christ the resurrected Christ and the person being so moved. I consider it sacred that whatever compels a person to come to a Communion rail is a stirring of something , particularly in the early stages of conversion. The move has to be new and tentative. I think the priestly function is to support that with every power available, holding out a hand to take the next step. But to have a hand that pushes you away because you have to do this thing first… well why would anyone possibly be attracted to baptism having been rejected?
CP: So your experience and your present theology of the sacraments isn’t in any way a diminishment of the power and importance of either the Eucharist or baptism?
CB: Oh no, I would say it is rather an increase of it. The experience has its own sacred power within it. It’s an arcanum in the classic tradition which means not just the symbol of the thing, but it actually has the power to begin to implement the change it points to. It’s because of the power, the power to transform life. It’s also because of the specific importance and the inclusiveness of the invitation that Jesus put on it that I think we have no right to lock it up in our interpretations in any way that would stand in the middle of the immediate relationship between the living Christ and its ability to engage and manifest in a person.
CP: It really goes right back to the image you were using when we were talking about the experience of your first Eucharist as a seed that has the power of its own that is beginning to work within you.
CB: And I think my story is somewhat trustworthy because I had absolutely no precondition. I had no expectations either positive or negative. I’d read enough liturgy and dramas at that point in my career as a medievalist that I knew when we got to the Communion rail I knew what we were doing. But I had no theological niches to put it in and no community cheering me on. I was a stranger in a strange town, so there were no pressures other than the naked encounter.
CP: The image of birthing is interesting and its connection to roadmaps.
I’ve never had a baby myself but I’ve been around a couple as they were being born and it seems to me that if you try to impose a roadmap on the arrival of a baby, you’re going to be in big trouble because it’s such an intimate relationship of the mother’s body, the baby’s body, the coaching, the support of the community, and the whole interplay of all of that.
CB: And sometimes it works backwards from what people think. People have fantasized that they are going to have a natural childbirth and they run into trouble and something else is happening and so the capacity to deal with reality as it presents itself is a spiritual skill that maps tend to dull.
CP: So what makes it so hard for the church to do that?
CB: Lack of practice.
CP: What practice?
CB: Practices that open the heart to the present – basically, starting with meditation which is the foundation to all presence. And then a tuning and deliberate cultivation and formation of those qualities of spiritual attentiveness in the moment, vigilance as the eastern orthodox call it. Nepsis that allows one to tune into the present nature of the divine reality rather than using the maps as a substitute.
CP: What about fear?
CB: What about it?
CP: Does that play a role?
CB: Yeah.
CP: What are we afraid of?
CB: I think at heart there is a deep fear of disappointment and unmasking.
CP: What does that mean?
CB: Well, suppose we gave a Eucharistic banquet and no one came? And suppose that all of this is just a hoax? I think it’s one of the reasons that people are so idolatrously attached to their words. You know I’ve worked with a number of people who at first get so upset when we sort of start rethinking doctrines and they say “You’re taking away my faith.” And I say, “No I’m not. I’m taking away your codified beliefs and your faith is what is left afterwards.”
I think there’s a deep fear that none of this that we’re saying is true and so we have to keep saying it louder and the game has all shifted to correct formulation and people have a pecking order around how precisely and brilliantly and imaginatively we can juggle our rubik’s cube and come out to the same and only possible solution.
CP: So the antidote to all of that is the living presence of Christ.
CB: Exactly, and I’m not even willing to pin it on fear. Before I hit a bottom line of fear, I’d put it on bad training and ignorance, the possibility is so often not opened up for people.
CP: What possibility?
CB: The possibility that our heart is a living participant and a trustworthy one in presence. And since we’re never taught to spend any time in presence whatsoever, the fear can then begin to grow inside a mind and soul that hasn’t grounded itself in presence feels that all of this just may be a hoax.
CP: And nor are we taught to trust our heart.
CB: No.
CP: Why not, that seems fairly fundamental?
CB: It’s a syndrome, I remember being shocked reading an editorial comment made by a professor on the dissertation proposal from one of my students at the seminary when she talked in a contemplative way about putting on the mind of Christ. The professor, who was the major academic advisor on the paper, wrote in the margin – all attempts or claims to put on the mind of Christ are psychological projection and represent severe dysfunction.
What kind of a tradition are we going to have based on that when we have nothing but a hermeneutics of suspicion and no training in how to find and connect with a lived reality of Christ? So I think we need to begin by building the space – the Quakers helped me find that space -that was their great gift to me.
I love what one of my friends who is a Quaker up in Calgary said to me when I said “Oh, the Quakers, you fired the priests!” And she said: “No we fired the laypeople!” It’s a brilliant comment because I think it’s our responsibility to midwife the spiritual heart which is the birthright of every person.
CP: And to trust that.
CB: And trust how it’s unfolding. So I am obligated, in virtue of my own history, to adopt a point of maximum inclusivity.
CP: Which creates space for the Spirit to be at work.
CB: Exactly.
CP: Well, that’s a beautiful vision and I should let you finish with that. It’s heartwarming to suggest that we might be able to open a space for people to be and to grow and to experience the reality of Christ at work in their lives.
CB: Exactly and to trust that reality of Christ in whatever form of work it downloads.
CP: All right thank you and bless you.
CB: Thank you!
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May 11, 2011 at 3:56 pm
Ernest
Fascinating.
May 11, 2011 at 4:40 pm
jaqueline
This is a fascinating interview….
May I please ask about something? It is an issue that also came up in Ernest’s sermon a couple of weeks back.
I am having a lot of trouble with this idea that the eucharist is the actual body and blood of Christ. Ernest gave a sermon on it and here in Cynthia’s interview she seems to suggest that the Eucharist is the presence of Christ.
You see I am having trouble with it because I cannot find in Jesus words or in the words of the Apostles this idea ( if they are there please guide me to them ). I do see lots and lots of reference to we, people being the Body and presence of Christ. I see lots of reference to Christ dwelling in US and lots of references that we are to REMEMBER Christ via the Eucharist.
I can believe that as we take the sacrament into our bodies that they become the body of Christ via us..that in our digestion of them and because Christ dwells in us this act of remembrance becomes a living memorial. I cannot accede however to the idea of this kind of ‘magic’ (the word Ernest used to describe it). It seems to me to be taking the focus off the Body of Christ being the people of God and onto objects that are inanimate and mistaking the symbol for the reality it represents; and that seems to be very very close to idolatory.
I suppose that is why the Protestant movement largely rejected the Catholic and Orthodox approach to the Eucharist….
May 11, 2011 at 8:19 pm
Ernest
“This is my body”
“This is my blood”
The Presence of Christ is always symbolic, whether its in the Eucharistic elements or in Creation, or the Church. But the symbol communicates the Real Presence of Christ and and through itself. The wine still looks like wine and the bread still tastes like bread and that guy sitting next to me still smells like a cheeseburger but in the gathering of the community in liturgy the sacrament makes truly present that which often seems hidden.
The Protestant movement completely missed the boat on this one I’m afraid.
May 11, 2011 at 10:34 pm
jaqueline
and I suppose you have no objection then to those who interpret it as an actual 7 days??
May 11, 2011 at 11:09 pm
jaqueline
In essence the demand that the Eucharist be the literal body and blood of Christ is nothing less than a denial of his presence in us….a denial of the enoughness of the Holy Spirit and a reversion into a literalism which your use of the word symbol is a cover for.
Where do you think the command to not build an idol comes from? Because God is jealous of wood? No…because God is jealous for us, that our devotion is not wasted and squandered on anything other than the love of the living God and his presence in the world through us.
I think we should stick to what Eucharist really means and let it be a ceremony in which we are thankful instead of having to bolster our unbelief by literalism, just as we accuse creationists and fundamentalists of doing.
And protestants missing the boat? I am starting to understand a little of their protest right now: how convenient for a Holy Empire to convince people who are the Body of Christ that the God they worship is only in symbols that only priests and the Church heirarchy are able to administer..how disempowering of those in whom the true presence of God dwells…
Besides I would rather miss a boat of all it does is carry me out to sea ……
May 12, 2011 at 1:30 am
jaqueline
You know despite being direct I am asking an honest question. …in your sermon Ernest you were pushing for transubstantiation and now here you are saying symbolism points to a reality…not IS a reality? Then why are you arguing with the Protestant view?
..and if it is as you said in your sermon magically literal why are you being clever instead of explaining to what is true? These two truncated sentences taken literally is not instruction nor do they give insight into what is true for you. Here are you and Cynthia both church leaders saying the same thing and I want to know where you get this idea from because I cannot find it myself..
That doesn’t mean I am right , it just means I cannot see why you are pushing this view and why should I or anyone else should agree with it, especially if it seems to point us away from the presence of Christ not to it ; it seems so unnecessary in the light of the presence of the Holy Spirit and the presence of Christ in the depths of our beings.
May 12, 2011 at 10:42 am
Ernest
It seems to me you are arguing with another person. Whose being literal? I think it might behoove us to pause for a moment before we assign 2000 years of Spirit led sacramental tradition to mere imperial power lust.
I don’t know what you mean by the “literal” body and blood of Christ. We have to see with the eyes of our hearts that either the human community or the bread and wine have been transfigured into the Body of Christ. Why are you choosing to see it it one place but not in another?
The problem with Protestantism is that is understands symbol to be “merely symbol” and, ironically given your expressed point of view, it is the protestants who are creationists not the Roman Catholics or Orthodox. The sacramental perspective understands that we live in a symbolic universe where even our language is symbolic. For symbol to be symbol it is by definition not an idol because it makes present the reality it symbolizes. So the bread and the wine do in fact make present the reality they symbolize – Jesus Christ, the living God is present to the church in and through the Eucharistic elements, as well as the gathered community, as well as the entire Creation, and, yes, I suspect even in a unique way in the priest who presides at the table. The world is enchanted and cannot be apprehended or acceded to with our intellects but if we are open it can be experienced. Symbols can be co-opted for egoic ends just as language can be but there is simply no way around the human need to use symbols to make present to us the beauty, the love, and the eternal life that transforms us.
May 12, 2011 at 1:01 pm
jaqueline
For symbol to be symbol it is by definition not an idol because it makes present the reality it symbolizes. So the bread and the wine do in fact make present the reality they symbolize – Jesus Christ, the living God is present to the church in and through the Eucharistic elements.
I missed that paragraph how strange.oh well I guess I wanted to let you off the hook more badly than I realised.
An idol is what we mistake as making present the thing it represents. If our sense of presence is dependent on that symbol it is an idol. Jesus is present in us and the priest and is with us whether the bread and wine are there or not.
A symbol rightly opens us up to the reality of the presence, it does not make the presence possible.
May 12, 2011 at 1:04 pm
jaqueline
oops this should have been in quotation marks “For symbol to be symbol it is by definition not an idol because it makes present the reality it symbolizes. So the bread and the wine do in fact make present the reality they symbolize – Jesus Christ, the living God is present to the church in and through the Eucharistic elements.”
May 14, 2011 at 10:24 pm
jaqueline
“we assign 2000 years of Spirit led sacramental tradition to mere imperial power lust.”
You know that is not what I was doing…you know that I was mentioning a glimpse of one of the issues that fueled the Reformation and this distortion of the Eucharist seems to be one of them.
Besides were you not the one encouraging me to question thousands of years of tradition in another post?
Anyway..I don’t need to dismiss it…I am not one who has lived under it…and as for those who did live under it…well we know what their response was don’t we.
May 12, 2011 at 10:42 am
Ernest
Darn. Whose = who’s
Bloody homonyms.
May 12, 2011 at 11:55 am
jaqueline
So now you make yourself clear it certainly did not come across that way in your sermon.
Yes i am well aware of the protestant tendency to it’s version of literalism…and the point was that each tradition has it’s vulnerability to that sort of covering up of unbelief.
And perhaps you might like to remember that the person you are addressing might not be a theologian but is studied in the arts and thus be a little familiar with the import of symbol…and well aware of what it is or what it’s job is and is perfectly able to recognise when it’s role and importance is overstated and when it’s role and importance is neglected.
Making symbol a substitute for reality is no antidote to the rejection of it. I am also well aware of the damage that has been done to the role of artists in Christian life because of both Catholic and Protestant literalism. The protestant iconoclasm being a reaction to the idolatry of the Catholicism of the day…and that wound has still to be healed but not through this revival of a mistaken belief.
Symbol is meant to be an interface ( a skin) for that which apparently is invisible whether emotion or intellect or spirit. But remove that invisible reality and the symbol falls empty like so much scale from the skin.
Christ in us, the body of Christ is not symbol it is reality. Christ in the Eucharist is symbol and represents reality and opens us up to the nature of Jesus brokenness. And it is the realisation of that reality opening in our hearts that is transformative..
The deeper reality is that all is in Christ and nothing is not a symbol or representation of Christ….My heart opened is sensible to the presence of Christ’s sacrifice by the contemplation of a growing sapling from a broken seed..or, as it was last night; in a film….Christ commanded we do this….as a symbol of a new covenant, a new seder. The sacrament does nothing if it is not greeted with an open heart…that is why those of us who at communion experience something..because we come with an open heart ( as believe it or not I do ).
May 12, 2011 at 4:32 pm
Ernest
I think this conversation has too much nuance for this medium. Suffice it to say we disagree on a fundamental level about the nature of symbolic reality.
May 12, 2011 at 9:14 pm
John
If I may say so, intellectual propositions about the Eucharist don’t mean much to me. The Eucharist is a mystery that is felt and experienced. Whether Christ’s presence is achieved by our approaching and taking Eucharist into ourselves or through the mixing of the Eucharist with what we already possess inside I don’t know. All I can talk about is the experience of Eucharist. I guess I would say that it is non-rational. But I do know that my experience of the Eucharist is unique among all of my life experiences. Something happens to me when I am in the presence of the Eucharist and when I partake that I am not able to experience anywhere else or on my own. This is not to say that I do not experience Christ’s presence in my life in other ways, only that that presence achieves a unique intensity and wholeness in Eucharist. Sorry … a bit of a repetitive explanation, but it’s the best I can do this evening.
May 14, 2011 at 11:52 am
Lindsay
“If I may say so, intellectual propositions about the Eucharist don’t mean much to me. ”
I agree, John … For me, the intellectual dogma and nuances, while probably interesting to some, are a barrier to any meaningful conversation … for me at least. It’s like any professional language, I find the jargon can be confusing. Like, even at a basic level, what exactly does ‘normative’ mean? ‘Normative’ for whom? If it’s like best practices and standards for members in a particular church only … then does it really apply to regular people?
For me, personally, I like “rules” of membership to be made clear up front. front. That way, I can know whether an organization might possibly satisfy the reasons I might consider joining.
To give an example, when my son was born prematurely he was very ill and struggling. I’m not Catholic, but he was allowed to be baptised Catholic because he was so frail. When it came time to ‘fulfil’ the obligation his baptism played, I approached the Catholic church and asked what that would entail … by then I was also concerned about his younger brother who had not been baptised. Being newly immigrant to Canada, it was also important to me, that my children should feel accepted and not treated as outsiders. The Catholic church sent me a brochure of dogma, probably about 30 pages long which I had to learn off by heart before my children could become members. That that was the prerequisite for membership, I didn’t have a problem with the rules. If anything, knowing there were hoops to jump through … made it clearer to me that the Catholic church was better and more naturally entered by birthright, kinda like born into a particular nationality By not being born Catholic myself, it seemed quite apparent, my children would start from a position of being outsiders … which is exactly contrary to the kind of acceptance in a wider community, beyond our immediate family, which i felt was so important for my children to know.
Obviously St Philips placed a different emphasis on belonging and acceptance, so my children’s early experience of church is aligned more along the lines of what I consider Christian teaching. Does that mean my children attend church now? No. But it does mean that if any time in future they should be called to enter a church, their experience of church is positive and nurturing … I don’t see them standing on the threshold of a church, quaking in their shoes. I’ve seen adults who’ve had no experience of church so afraid of entering a church building … kinda like if they cross the threshold they will be struck down by the wrath of God immediately … which I find sad.
May 16, 2011 at 7:27 am
Kim
Nicely put Lindsay. I think a lot of people have been there. I also identify with John. The intellectual conversation for me builds confusion between my heart and what I feel or experience as Christ.
I end up further from him than before.
May 16, 2011 at 8:59 am
Lindsay
Yup Kim, it seems I also need a different yardstick to figure things out … I find Christopher’s blog has often challenged me to think outside my regular mindset … it’s not always been comfortable, but that’s okay. I like that these kind of conversations are possible here ….
On a side note … being an IT gal, it’s amusing that my trusty Google search engine for finding out about how stuff works isn’t trustworthy .. apparently Google filters everything it returns based on my prior searches …. so basically if I think I know something Google’s just going to agree with me … that’s not so good either … and that the gatekeeper is a robot instead of a human is kinda freaky 🙂
May 16, 2011 at 8:01 pm
jaqueline
For me this is not just intellectual conversation . I am writing because of my experience not despite it.
If I…an artist: one whose very method of apprehending, interpreting and responding to the world is mythological and symbolic feels cause for reservation I hope it might not be judged simply an intellectual exercise…
If it isn’t one’s cup of tea, there is not need to dismiss the value of engaging intellectually just as engaging intellectually should not have to dismiss experience. Anyway I am not aware of being intellectual..it is the way I think; for me it is about articulating experience. Besides, the way we frame/ intellectualise our experience has an effect what our experience is.
IF WE THINK our experience is dependent upon the symbol instead of the symbol dependent upon our experience it becomes a box , a fence, a trap… Consistently, far more that focusing us upon ritual and symbols , Christ, the Apostles and the Prophets have called us to our heart relationship with God and with each other, called us to recognise the work and presence of God in every day ordinary life..and far more than promoting methods of worship they have had to deal with the tendency for us to misidentify our relationship with the Living God with our ceremonies.
Symbol rightly understood is a window or a doorway….the Eucharist , Baptism, Liturgy, tradition, Icon, a piece of art or music or word it is a window, an entry way, a marker, into the reality of what I cannot see. A window’s purpose is to open up and allow light and air into a chamber. My fear is that because we mistake the window for the source of air and light, we misread our experience, slam it shut, and so keep our experience in a darkened and airless room.
May 16, 2011 at 8:09 pm
jaqueline
I think I will modify ‘Symbol rightly understood’ to ‘Symbol as I understand it’.
No matter how accurate or perceptive or insightful I think I am, truthfulness isn’t served by arrogance or closed mindedness to the possiblity of being wrong or not having the whole story.
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This was on Facebook today! 🙂
“Not only is image generated from inside, but images are found outside. One of the intentions of a mythological system is to present evocative images, images that touch and resonate in very deep centers of our impulse system, and then move us from those very deep centers into action”- Joseph Campbell
May 16, 2011 at 8:11 pm
jaqueline
“No matter how accurate or perceptive or insightful I think I am”
btw..I have discovered they do not have an emoticon for ‘tongue in cheek’
May 17, 2011 at 9:38 pm
Kim
Thanks so much for that link Lindsay! That’s a huge eye opener for me.
Jaqueline,
I am sorry if I left you feeling judged at all. I am aware that the great majority of posts here are of some deep, quality thoughts. I enjoy staying in touch with Christopher’s offerings and also the reply’s. I guess the truth is when I saw something that more closely struck a chord with my heart, I instinctively replied. Possibly without as much editing as needed to avoid singling you out. As the leader in offerings here, I guess that was hard to avoid having that reflect on you. Sorry! I enjoy all of your messages, especially for the passion behind them.
My only hope is you can install a filter for “hockey fan guy that can lift heavy things” 😉
Thanks in anticipation of your understanding!
May 18, 2011 at 9:10 pm
jaqueline
Oh I did not feel judged. Just worried that ideas that could be useful ( even if not to you or others ) being dismissed as though we are just talking off the top of our heads…. 🙂
Every one is cheering over the road at the Canucks not long ago and no-one is on Face Book because of the game..it is sooooo not my cup of tea…and I really don’t like sports and do have a hard time seeing their relevance…but I am not sure I would want to say sports are of no use in our lives… you guys aren’t feeling judged are you? 😉
May 19, 2011 at 9:51 pm
jaqueline
Hey Kim ( after trying to be funny yesterday )…I was thinking…you know I think it is important that we are able to say what we think, within the parameters of civility….and everyone have the right of reply rather than being afraid of writing in case we offend.
What I got from you individual post was that to wrap your mind around all the ideas it sends your head disconnecting from your heart…
I totally get that. Please don’t think that that was judging..it wasn’t .
But I did feel I needed to explain where I was coming from……. 🙂
May 20, 2011 at 11:02 am
jaqueline
Sorry I should have posted this with my reply above:
“I guess the truth is when I saw something that more closely struck a chord with my heart, I instinctively replied. Possibly without as much editing as needed to avoid singling you out. ”
When something strikes a chord with our heart I reckon that is exactly when we nee to speak up. I did not feel singled out…I saw three people go..’ok this is a bit much and maybe it misses the point.’…and you all brought yourselves and us back to the centrality of experience which is also the focus of what Cynthia says.
I just wanted to make sure that the way Ernest and I were discussing is not negated as having it’s own relevance in the matter of experience..even if not for some….engaging with our head about experience does not mean having to deny the heart. 🙂
May 20, 2011 at 12:44 pm
Lindsay
“I just wanted to make sure that the way Ernest and I were discussing is not negated as having it’s own relevance in the matter of experience..even if not for some….engaging with our head about experience does not mean having to deny the heart.”
If I understand what you are saying correctly, Jaqueline, sounds good to me. I guess, what I find more unsettling, not just here but generally, is not the subject matter being discussed but when emotions rule above anything else, when a conversation is left with legs still dangling in the air … it heats up, and participants leave before the conversation really has a chance to really get going … but in the meantime something has shifted … a Pandora’s box is opened but a different transformational understanding of it is lost because participants who have worthwhile insights to offer leave suddenly … does that make any sense? In my ideal world every conversation would start right at the outset with participants agreeing to disagree … and bonded by friendship … But life’s not often like that and differences are often left to churn off on the side unattended, unnecessarily, often seemingly with no way back. Okay, lots of mixed metaphors and I don’t really know why staying involved in a conversation seems so important … or why it bothers me … but the point of what I’m trying to say, Jaqueline, is I appreciate your commitment to continue in this conversation and love your comments to facilitate this happening.
May 20, 2011 at 4:09 pm
Lindsay
Doh! I just reread what I wrote in response to your comment and it doesn’t say what I’m trying to say … sorry. It’s more like what we were talking about with Dana the other day … that different ideologies are not worth destroying friendships …
May 21, 2011 at 1:21 pm
jaqueline
Yep Lindsay ..I get what you are saying and I am with you…just when engagement happens, even if through disagreement, which could lead to something new for one or the other or both, someone ducks out..
There are lots of reasons for that happening but the three that come to mind are:
1)sometimes because people don’t have the time or energy to continue -which is the case for most people I think . ( I might seem to have more of that but that is because this is the only place I regularly am able to engage about spiritual things – I do not have a home group for instance, nor do I have lots of people around who are just dying to talk about this stuff , nor do I engage in this in my everyday ; and those who do might be a bit tired of it by the time it gets to this blog and don’t really ‘need ‘ it.)
2)sometimes things are too complicated to write about..and might need a real life conversation..(again something I do not have much access to) an alternative conversation or another venue is offered-. Christopher did that once. When we started to talk about trauma on Facebook, he moved it over here. You can always tell if this is the real reason- especially if the person saying it is too complicated writes very well..otherwise it is a safe way of…
3) copping out…if you are more attached to what you think is right than to truth, you do not like to be challenged. Those who love truth value being challenged even if they do not always enjoy it, because it provides a chance for their vision of truth to be more illumined through confirmation or adjustment. Also I find that those who are confident about their truth are able to present it; not just by telling you why yours is wrong..and even if they think yours is wrong they are able to explain that instead of just saying theirs is right. ( which is why I decided to take John up on his challenge to explain my reservations for Anthroposophy for instance..until I did that all I was doing was saying ‘I don’t agree’ while keeping myself under cover. )
4) the other possibility I thought off is they don’t give a toss about you personally and couldn’t be bothered..but then why engage and get a disagreement going in the first place? Because the idea is more important that the person and the truth I suppose…which brings us back to…. DOH! 😉
May 23, 2011 at 10:56 pm
Lindsay
🙂 doh a dear, a female dear, ray a drop of golden sun, etc … I wish i knew how to type those musical icons …
“Because the idea is more important that the person and the truth I suppose” … Why is it that we are programmed to be so focused on the truth at the expense of the person, do you think, Jaqueline? …
Nowadays I find myself tending more towards a sense that the truth is subjective and dependent on the person talking as well as the person listening and can change as circumstances change over time … yet it is still tempting to hold truth up as though it’s the most important yardstick, more important than love, for instance.
Sometimes it’s kind of like that mantra if a bell rings in a forest and there’s no-one around to hear it … does it make a sound? … If I relate a story about something that actually happened to me and the person hearing what I say doesn’t believe me, am I telling the truth? The person might say if I can prove it is true with hard and fast evidence, or if I can provide other people to verify what I’m saying, he or she might be convinced I’m telling the truth. But that doesn’t make an iota of difference to the actual event which happened … it relies more on my ability to influence the perception of the person listening to the story. What if I don’t have any hard and fast evidence at hand, or if no-one else is around to provide a first hand witness account? On the other hand, what if I omit certain pertinent information, either deliberately or not realising it is important … or through not knowing about it …. that could change a person’s perception too … perhaps even my own perception after the fact.
In that tv drama House, MD, Hugh Laurie’s character starts off with the assumption that everybody lies …. and if they don’t they ought to … like the goal justifies the means. I’m not sure I’d go that far, but I can see his point. I’m more inclined to think we perceive our truth based on our own inclination at the time, whatever that means.
Being cursed with one of those heads that tends to evaluate the logic/impact of whatever is being said, the bottom line question I keep having to remind myself to ask is … in the great scheme of things what is more important? The truth or the poetry? As long as I remember to ask the question … poetry invariably wins. I guess, Jaqueline, this is a long, roundabout way of saying, I don’t agree the truth is all important … it just doesn’t hold as much weight for me as it once did … at least I’d like to think it doesn’t 🙂
May 24, 2011 at 12:11 am
jaqueline
I actually said: “because the IDEA is more important than …truth”. 🙂
truth in love is the yardstick..Paul says speaking the truth in love is what counts.
hmm I am wondering..if people have a disagreement maybe that is truth announcing that the idea each has is only a piece and that we need to go beyond our idea .Sometimes we are not ready for that.
May 24, 2011 at 12:15 am
jaqueline
poetry wins? who said poetry is not truth? maybe truth in love is poetry 🙂
May 24, 2011 at 12:04 am
jaqueline
I think real truth never excludes the person.
I like how Jesus declared ” I am the Truth”…it is forever identified as person….
May 25, 2011 at 8:42 am
Lindsay
Hey Jaqueline,
I’m back to trying to figure out what it means when we talk about the truth. When people say, for instance, that they are seeking the truth, what are they really saying? What did Jesus mean when he said “I am the truth”? The definitions in online dictionaries don’t seem that helpful.
Your comment, however is … You wrote ‘I actually said: “because the IDEA is more important than …truth”.’ … Maybe that’s where the problem lies … the idea of truth is not the same as truth.
Is truth the same as frank … “Open and sincere in expression; straightforward”? for instance. But that doesn’t seem to cover what Jesus was saying when he said “I am the truth”. So … what did Jesus really mean? My sense is in this context it doesn’t mean Jesus was saying we should all be brutally frank … It would be helpful to have Jesus’ definition of truth … is there one? I’m thinking that if our picture of Jesus is filtered by the writers of the Bible and we are missing some of the picture … eg. the Books of Nag, for example, Jesus’ teachings still stand up above the filtering … maybe it’s because his teachings were pointing to a universal truth which makes common sense, not matter what the context …
Back to definitions … I’m good with the definition Paul gave in Corinthians of what love is … but I kinda think it’s missing something … at least for me there’s a stepping block missing … which takes love from being a tedious list of qualities we have to strive for and will invariably fail at doing well unless love is an outcome rather than a list of action items …. it’s kinda like love starts with an appreciation of everyone and everything around me and expectation/understanding of the best outcome … no matter what form that takes. When I can remind myself to see it that way … rather than insisting that everyone should be a certain way to fit my vision of the “truth” then love comes more naturally. That’s what I mean by poetry wins … it’s not so much poetry in words … words have a life of their own and end up meaning something different with an agenda of their own …. it’s more like poetry in life … something beyond words …. the way life unfolds naturally the way it’s supposed to … no matter which way it unfolds …. It’s kinda like poetry is a baby step towards love ….. so I guess if poetry is truth … I guess I can accept that idea because it’s a different kind of poetry and a different kind of truth … Sorry if this sounds more obscure and complicated than it is … but I don’t know how else to express it …
May 27, 2011 at 10:17 pm
jaqueline
( I’ve been thinking through this..not ignored or forgotten ) 😉
May 27, 2011 at 11:36 pm
Lindsay
Ah, and here I was thinking it was reason # 5) … too weird to know how to respond 🙂
I enjoyed reading your response to one of Christopher’s other blog this evening on baby boomers … What is weird is after reading what you wrote I realized that there is something about Harold Camping I can appreciate … At 89 he is doing his calculations and putting himself completely out there following something he believes in strongly … when really at 89 he could kicking back and relaxing …. It’s seems easy for us to poke fun at him … we’re not doing what he’s doing. What can I say, I’m a sucker for people who march to their own drummer … even if he seems weird, and dare I say it … a tad creepy. That’s just it though, people like him seem to incite a passionate response in others, even if contrary. When I was in Seattle last weekend, it was delightfully wicked to see that someone had left clothing careful arranged on the sidewalk to make it look like the person in the clothing had simply evaporated … others organized Rapture parties … others, not normally given to zesty humour, had a sparkle in their eye. For me it was a glimpse at something I haven’t noticed here on the West Coast before … that dark humour that comes out when the shared ship is going down … the kind that breaks the back of bleakness … It kinda gave me hope that people here on the West Coast would cope with a disaster …. Yup, now I know what I’ve just written here is a bit odd … 🙂
May 28, 2011 at 12:36 am
jaqueline
* LOVE IT*
May 28, 2011 at 11:59 am
Lindsay
This morning I went on a delightful little journey … it started with Christopher mentioning monks a couple of weeks ago, to wondering … If nuns marry Jesus who, if anyone, do monks marry … the church? … to a blog on a Catholic site about different orders’ ‘wedding’ rings … to wikipedia about monks of different religions … to an Oprah interview with Domincan sisters … I have a specially soft sport for Dominican sisters being the order of the convent I attended … to discovering that the Dominican order in Michigan is growing so much there isn’t enough room to house all the women who want to join … and surprisingly the average age of women is in their 20’s … to Oprah’s final show and this …. huh! I never found out if monks marry … a suggestion that they don’t … but I loved to hear from Oprah that the concept of our calling is more mainstream and not that unusual … a happy discovery …
http://www.oprah.com/oprahshow/What-Oprah-Knows-For-Sure-Video/topic/oprahshow