Yehshua says: Happy are those
who have been persecuted in their heart.

They have truly come to know the Father.

Happy are those who suffer from hunger
for the belly of the one who longs will be filled.

(Matthew 5:6)

Paul alluded to the tension in this Saying when he wrote,

So I find it to be a law that when I want to do what is good, evil lies close at hand. For I delight in the law of God in my inmost self, but I see in my members another law at war with the law of my mind, making me captive to the law of sin that dwells in my members. (Romans 7:21-23)

Paul describes one part of himself as “my inmost self;” the other he calls “my members.”  For Yeshua “my members” has the capacity to persecute “my inmost self”

I experience “persecution” within my heart when I am at war within myself. When the small egoic self (ahamkara Saying 35) that seeks to dominate the surface circumstances of my life is given free reign. Ahamkara attacks and undermines my true self that is the image of God in which I was created.

Paul goes on in Romans 7 to give voice to the deep longing of the human heart confronted with this constant tension:

Wretched man that I am! Who will rescue me from this body of death? (Romans 7:24)

I long for an end to this struggle; but I know that the war that rages within will never fully conclude as long as I continue in this journey on the horizontal plane. But, some of the power of this struggle is diminished when I am able to see the true nature of the inner battle in my “heart.”

The longing I experience, when I acknowledge its power, leads me to that place where I find “the Father,” and experience the inner “happiness” of being filled with the presence and beauty of the love which is my true nature.

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Today I will observe how the tension between the small self within and the rich deep self of my true nature are at war and will observe how this seeing opens an awareness of my deeper nature.

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